This week sure is exhausting. Haven managed to get a proper break from running this entire week.

Had my 3km time trail on monday. I did a 10'45 for it. A good time i guess since i slowed down a little to push nicholas on, to run faster and I held back and didnt sprint the last 200m cuz I wanted to save up some energy for wed race. After my time trail, went over to help my class with cap's ball. One of our teams was champion of the A&B group and enter the last 16. Sadly the other failed to, all thanks to the stupid refs. They know no shit about cap ball man. Always contradicting themselves when ref-ing the game, cannot make correct and strong decisions, lack the initiative to blow the whistle and worst of all, they think we can do a substitution when we're still playing a match and think that there's no wrong in it. Screw the refs man, you all cannot make it.

Tuesday, didnt run much through. Just played cap ball again cuz the guys wanted to practice for their match later on. We played well and my knee started to hurt again. Eventually, we lost in the last 16, but S13, G-Double O- D - J-O-B to everyone, you did great. Hanged around the school and talked about everything with Caixin and Nicholas. Oh, and Caixin got a packet of M&Ns from Sssss-ta, i shall not elaborate here (:

Had the 50th National X-country on Wed. Caixin and I saw Ms koh, our ex coach. It was great to see her once again. I did a 19'52, a pathetic timing but i was not sadden. I dared not run fast cuz of my knee, I didnt want to injure it further. So my PB of 18'59 is still waiting to be broken bah. Strangely, when i was at my last 150m, i heard Ms Koh shouting at me to sprint. Suddenly, my legs just went faster and faster and i caught up with the TPJC runner in front of me. Wow, i think the 2 years that i've been training under her had made my mind somehow listen to what ever she says.

Thursday, had track training. Didnt do much though, just did a 4 x 400m rely and a 4 x 800m rely. Timings are 4.00min and 10.27min respectively. Got a feeling that i've broken the 60sec mark for my 400m.

Had touch rug on friday, got into the finals for it. Had a really cool touch down, think you're impressed by it righttt (;

Saturday, had GP lect and Econs lect. Sorry liwen, i didnt know Gp starts at 8'30am and had to make you take a cab down. I still owe you 7 bucks okay, remind me pls. Yea, went for lunch at somewhere, i forgot the name of the place. $6 for oven backed rice, and it sure was yummy. We headed for Gombak stadium for our 4 x 400m race. When warming up, I felt nothing, all blank. No fear, no reluctance to run, no fatigue but i felt no confidence, just relaxed. Nicholas started and did a 61s, he managed to shave off 2 more seconds! Tak kin managed to catch up with senk kang sec and CJC before passing the baton to me, he did a 58s. I burst, opening up my strides to 80%. I was determined to catch up by at least 30m and overtake the seng kang guy. I sprinted the 300m but ended the last 100m weak, sadly. But it was a strong and wicked timing of 56.8, my new personal best. Caixin ended the race with a time of 57s. In total, we did a 3.55 for SPH, we managed to shave off 5s from thurs and lacked the seniors by just 3sec, we're very close.

Today, i went out to study with liwen in the morning cuz if i didnt, she wouldnt have any lecture notes to use for her acid tut. Yea, managed to complete 1 more hw before heading off for Gombak again. Before our race started, I felt different from Saturday. I was in my spikes, the one that keeps coming off, I was in no mood to run cuz of it. It poured just before our race, was it was delyed to 5'30pm, before it resumed. I underperformed badly, I started weak. with no long strides, I let the NJC guy catch up with me. But I managed to hold him off. I did 2.21 ... Very disappointing timing, for some reason i was closed to tears when i learnt of my time. Tak Kin did a 2.10, that was what i wanted so badly, good job man. I told you that 800m is the right one for you. I don't know what's wrong, but I know some stuff are not in my favour. I cooled down before my race, I was hungry, had no energy and I had no one to chase. Despite all that, I think it still boils down to me. Darn it, nationals are coming, can i hit 2'03 by then man..

Common test results are back.
GP - E
Chem - B
Math - S
Econs - C
Physics - U
Total score is 43. Boy, I've got a long way to go..
Now, I've got so many seconds to shed off from 800m and tons of homework to prepre and so much to catch up and Im in need for new spikes, this really sucks.. and im tired, very.

Okay, quite a number of stuff happened during this one week term break. I realised that i was in schoool practically everyday. Sian, talk about a break from school. hahaha.

Monday and Tuesday
Had lessons so yea, went back to school. Track training on tuesday, pain is so unbearable, so i decided to visit the medical clinic and have an acupuncture. Went for my sis's grandpa wake. Glad to see that you are alright and well.

Wednesday
was day 1 for track camp. But before heading down to school, i dropped by Caixin's place. Arrived late cuz i overslept and to make things worst, i have not packed my stuff for camp. But chill, there's still time. Went down to acu, and unfortunately, the earliest time which i can arrange for an appointment would be 12'30pm. Too late, so we let it pass. I realised my phone was still in caixin's place, and caixin forgot to bring cash along. So how? Go back lor, zzz. Took a cab back to his place, grab our staff and lazy caixin asked his dad to give us both a ride to school.

Headed to school and luckily we were on time. Went for dragon boating, wow, 100% fun and exhausting man. Had tans on my legs and arms cuz tak kin and i were wearing FBTs and i rolled up my sleve. Too bad we lost to the other half of the track team at the end of the day though. Had dinner and played night games. Actually i didnt play much cuz i was like the photographer. Games were fun like h20 and there's this lame game where a guy is supposed to say: If you love me, please smile or something like that and the girl is supposed to reply: I love you too, but i just can't smile.. Hahahah, dear, let's play this game (: you're gonna lose!

Thursday and Friday
Woke up at 5'30am to do the track vid, realised i've got many missing pics. Left in the morning for acupucture, so i missed games. Took 153 with liwen, long ride it was. Luckily i have dear to accompany me :D Acupucture was painful man, when the doc pocked the needle in, it was like AHHH! pain! Managed to ren throughout. Yupp, after 2-3 hours, headed back to school. Learnt that desmond dislocated his finger, ouch man! Hahaha, luckily he's fine and as noisy as ever. Spend training time and BBQ doing up the track video, so ya kinda missed out alot. Oh well, if i don't do the vid, who will uh? At about 12, went to shower with the guys and got ready for the night game. hahaha, i dressed up wearing the grim's mask, being the photo ghost. Yea man, scared the shit out of them! Joel, pris, you shld have seen your faces. Ran up and down scaring everyone and the mask is so stuffy. I ended sweating and had my entire shirt drenched in swear. Everything ended at arnd 5'30am. Fell asleep while doing the evaluation, sorry guys, im really too tired. Went home at around 7am, and tucked into bed at 8am. Slept to 8'30pm.

Saturday
Liwen and Ianson dropped by my place to do the GP project. Yea, i fell asleep on my bed halfway, oops. Thanks baby for packing my table(:

Sunday
My mum's flying to Amsterdam tonight. Have a safe trip mum.


Dear, thank you so much for being there when i needed you most. Thank you for being so patient and caring about how tired i was. And a big thank you for packing my table. To end this post off, i wanna say i love you <3

It's kind of a sad day today. Not for me, but for those around me bah..

Jie, im really sorry to learn about the bad news. I'll try to come down tml evening if i could, if my training ends early, or something bah. I'll really try to come down tml. I just want you to know this:

God gives each and every one of us a life. Not to give us a chance to experience death, but a chance to experience the marvels of His creation. However, some do not realise that. That's why there's euthanasia and suicides going on, ending they life easily. But, there will be a handful that will push on hard, enduring all the pain, just so that they can breath on Earth, a beautiful place, for one more day. Your grandpa's a strong man. He went through alot of pain, alot of suffering, but don't feel sad because he's doing it just so that he can see what a beautiful granddaughter he has. Fel, he didnt give in to death, in stead he fought against it till the very end. I think that's what makes him a real role model, one that never gives up. Dont worry about where he's going. He aint going down to hell, with all those vapours of sulphur and with Hydes grinning from ear to ear. He's going up, to paradise, a place where he no longer feels pain, a place where he can find comfort, a place where he can watch you and guide you as you grow up.

Sis, study hard okay, don't get too distracted. You found yourself one more reason to become successful. God bless you and your grandpa.

Dear, stop feeling upset alrdy. I know you've been carrying guilt with you all day long. Just let it down. You didnt anger me, you didnt make me feel sad one bit alright. Mistakes makes us better as we can learn from them to become a better person. Mis-communications do happen alright, we gotta accept it, this way we can get to know each of us better. We just started, we got a long road to go, we've got a lot to learn. But im optimistic that one day we'll understand each other better, we'll know each other better and an even more loving couple we'll be :D Don't hold back whenever you're sad okay. When you wanna cry, just cry, when you wanna be sad, don't fake a smile. Let me comfort you, let me bring that smile back onto your face, cuz if i don't, what's the point of having a boyfriend like me right (:

I'll never be anger with you, cuz whenever i put myself in your shoes, i realise that whatever you're doing, it's either for me, or for the people around you, and for that i love you, dear.
Smile already okay? I miss my silly girl's smile.

My knee's all better (:
Sadly, couldnt go for training yesterday. The knee was hurting very badly in the morning, but somehow it got better after bending it more often. So, i went out to bishan library to do abit of studing and at the same time grabbed rae's bday present and my dad's bday present with liwen. Yea, fell asleep at 8pm last night, on the sofa, didnt know i was so tired! Darn it, and i missed the Man-united match against Liverpool. 4-1, the red devils lost T.T Oh while, we'll still all alone up there and still on the road to 5 trophies :D

Yupp, woke up at 1'30pm today, felt super disorientated, it's been ages since i slept for so long. Things to do today, pack my monster table, it's too messy alrdy.. Okay, better start cracking.

Finally found it!

30 minutes left before sleeping, so i guess i'll spend it wisely. haha.

Common tests are finally over! Didnt really prepare well, and yupp gonna get my just desserts soon. The only subject i've got confidence in would be Chem. Math and Phys are a gonner. Gp and Econs, very uncentain. Oh well, i'll pull up my socks for the mid years.

Track's back once again! Wednesday, went to bedok again, to do a trail 5km run. After that, went to marina for dinner with dear(: Sorry im an hour late, i shld have just taken the train. Nevertheless, thank you for spending wed night with me :D

Yesterday, went out study at singpost and alj library, with liwen again la okay (CINDY stop laughing -.-). Went for training again, wow luckily for the lightening warning, or else i'll would have died of heat exhaustion. Had 5km run, followed by 50m fard leks 100m fard leks for 2 rounds each. Followed by a 3km run. Then did 50m 70m 100m sprint training, twice. Wow, tiring man, high intensity. Blister started to peel again, so i took off my racers and ran barefooted for the last klick of the 5km and 3km.

Today, woke up at 6am i think, went for a morning run of 5km with winson, ck, ks, yp, and liwen(: and ended it with bball. yupp yupp, lazy elaborate on school. Went for 10km milage today, and my right knee is really hurting..
Called Ms Koh just now, she said i had too much high intensity and given that my left leg is weaker than my right, all weight is actually put onto my right leg. So, high intensity + many training days + more weight emphasis on right leg = having a right knee that's failing me now ):
Furthermore, she said it could be due to me running barefooted yesterday, damn..
I can't run fast, I'm scared I can't train, I hope I can endure the pain tml. It's just 2 hours tml, I can make it!

Okay, rest time, goooooodnights.

Dear, stop worrying, i'll be fine. You ain't pretty when you frown.

Term 1 is gonna be over soon. Common test is just next week, good luck everyone! Celebrating Dad's birthday today, so happy birthday Dad (:

I dont feel right for CT, I dont feel ready, the peak that i felt for maths during promos aint there, hmm.. I might flunk, i might not, it doesnt matter much to me though, cuz it's just the beginning, i'll just take this CT as a wake up call to study harder next time bah.

Got back my A level chinese results, i passed with an 'E'. Although it's just an E, but i passed! All of S20'08 passed their MT, so congrats all. Those that arn't satisfied about their results, dont be sad, think through whether you wanna retake.

Okay, this is for you, that night, when you held my hand and nodded to indicate a 'yes', I was over the moon. I was the happiest man alive that moment <3 Baby, don't be sad over your MT results, no matter what i'm always rooting you on okay. Jiayous for your CT, do your best okay, i dont expect anything from you, except your 100% effort to do well, dont give up okay. We'll make it pass CT, Mid year, Prelims, Pre-A and A levels , you and i together.

Finally played soccer today, felt so shoik! Okay, that's not the point. The point is i clocked over 15klick of training today:D
-400m x 9, avg time of 1'20 per set (was supposed to 10 sets, but thanks to the lighting, i cant do the last set)
-8km milage
-4km for 100km challenge
Oh, i completed 100k alrdy! Excluding the 100 over kilometres i didnt clock last year. So congrats to me(: I love running.

Strangely, I've lost interest in my studies alrdy. Everything seems so foreign, i dont understand alot of what's being taught now. Also, im tired of studying late, mugging hard alrdy. I had a feel of it last year during promos arldy, and im scared of it. Furthermore, nationals are coming, i wanna get into 800m finals, and to do that i've gotta train harder and train more. So now, whenever i come to school, it's all about track. common test, im so gonna fail you.

A level results out, my chinese result will be out, im worried. What if i really fail, sign*.. Gotta finish my dinner bah.

i like to play with your fingers, take long bus rides with you, simply to be with you whenever possible(: