This world is not a fairy tale. This world isnt always a happy place to be in. The humans inhabiting this world are no prince charming or some fairy god mother or another other pure hearted people. In this world, there are good and of course ugly people. There are people that will go all out to aid us or to go all out to harm us and that is the fact that we must accept. There are good people everywhere but there are bad and ugly people everywhere too.

We find these people everywhere, on the streets, in school, in the army, in work or even at home. There are people in this world that will peep into your phonebook to get your client's no. to steal them from you. There are people that impose several duties and task on you when there are others that they could spread the work out on. There are people that ruins others' life and feel no guilt.

It is sad to see people becoming victims of such acts, acts which I see no meaning to. Why do some people do harmful things on others? Is it for vengence? For your own benefit and gains or what? I dont know really.

Wanna talk about love. I dont know if i should talk about this in the first place though cuz im just a 19 year old kid and dont think im 100% ready and sure of what im gonna talk about.

Personally, i feel that for a guy and girl to stay tgt as a couple is difficult. Frankly speaking, it's difficult. There are so many things that are able to cause a break up and it could be simple things like money, work, family, lack of trust, religion, lack of committment, health, disablities, accidents, even friends. It can take years to build a strong relationship but it only takes a minute, a sentence, a virus to end one. And definitely, the thought of losing a love one is painful. The thought of how i first broke up a few years back is still painful and i can still remember the tears i shed in the past. It was painful.

But eventually i managed to get back up on my two feets and carry on. Thanks to people like caixin and liwen who motivated me though those tough times. Why look at just a tree when you got the entire forest. One can always catch a new fish if one loses the previous.

Love is a powerful thing in this world. It can cause crimes and suicides, etc. Love also makes us unique. Not many animals know how to love. That is why we must learn to love the people around us, especially our family.

Speaking of which, Family. One of the three most important things in life. The importance of a family cannot be stressed. Whether its your mum or dad, or your gf bf, brother or sister, aunt or uncle. Why family and not friends? The reason is blunt but true. Family is there forever, but friends wont last. After reading a book, tipping point, i realised something very true. Friends are only made when we are involved in the same activity. We only make friends because we share the same activity. For 4 years i may know this person well because of football, i might not even talk to him ever again when we go on our separate ways. I could be your friend now, but 30 years later, We may just be strangers and that is the fact. This is because of the proven fact that having close friends is tiring and time consuming. It is difficult to have up to 150 close friends because of all the committment you must put in. That is why family is so important. They will always be there unlike friends we made in school.

PS: of course there will definitely be brillant friends that we'll make along the course of our life and i feel we shld treat them as family too.

Didnt attend any open house this weekend. Wanted to go for NTU open house but since nick and yp dont want so i didnt go too, stayed home instead.

Been thinking of how cool it would be to stay in hall hahha. Everything all OTOT. Wake up in the early morning at around 6,30am to run for 30mins, then hit the showers before going for class, head to the library to continue studies after school. After that will head for dinner with hall mate and return back to library if it's still open to continue my studies. Head back to hall around 9pm to shower and call and talk to liwen for about 1.5hours, then do reading till about 12,30 lights out sleep. An idea day in the Uni lol, but confirm wont happen la, since there'll be lan, soccer and cca, etc going on hahahah.

Just got myself a red portable 500gig external hardisk, used up 20% or so alrdy. At least my labtop has got some free space.

Tml is Dad's birthday, but postphoned to next sunday. Next Sat is my Grandma birthday. Two consecutive days of cake lol. Going Universal studios tml! Whee, hahah and red wine sucks man, so sour..

Looked at some uni courses, came up with a few that im interested in:

1. environment engineering (ntu)
2. chem and biomolecular (ntu)
3. chem and biochem (ntu)
4. mathematical science (ntu)
5. chem engineering (nus)
6. engineering science (nus)
7. science (nus)
8. teaching? hmmm...

Yea, dont think i can get into NUS's chem engineering though, cuz need straight As, but will try lol. Admission into NUS seems tough, so entering NTU would be easier for me. Mostly engineering cuz my Gp T.T hahhaha

Shld i try out teaching? Will i be a good teacher? Teaching someone feels good actually haha, but for some reason something is holding me back.. Wonder what lol.

Back to post again. Today is our one year anniversary! Love you so much dear although we arn't in the right mood for any celebration. Reason is mainly due to the release of the GCE A level results.

Friday, 5th of March was the date of release and it was just hours ago. Saw my name on the screen, well that was something i aimed up, but somehow my heart cracked. Strangely, everyone was cheering and happy that their names were up there, but I was hardly impressed with mine. I wanted higher, but well at that moment had to accept the fact. At least it stopped my heart from throbbing like there was a heart attack, haha. So I prayed that my results were consistent, hopefully not much fluctuations. CK, OKS, Rae, Winson and Andy names appeared on the screen, wow, extra congrats to all of you, two thumbs up! Haha.

Eventually, exited the hall and went to the concourse to collect our result slip. I got back mine, dank, E for gp, utterly disappointed with it. Tried so hard and all I got was an E which will pull all my other grades down. Liwen got her results back too, and she cried, ya I noticed all along okay. I just feel that you need some air first, so I didnt approach you immediately. Hope you feel alot better now while you're snoring lol. The rest got back their results too, some rejoice, some emo. Quite a sad day overall, well what can I expect?

Okay, time to get over it man. Congrats to those that improved and those that scored well and those that are satisfied with your results, I wish you all the best in getting into a course which you're interested in.

To those that didnt do so well or those emo-ing right now, dont give up people! Don't know how many people know of this or how many remember la, my pw group did a proj associated about David Lim, a Singaporean mountain climber. Search him up and read up on his life's story. I think David Lim is a perfect role model of someone who fails at first but picked himself up again and moved on in life.

David Lim was the leader of the 1998 Mt Everest expedition team, was the team managed to conquer Everest. But a week upon his return to singapore, he was diagnosed with GBS. It's some kind of illness that made him paralysed limbs down and have breathing problem. He had a close brush with death, but he survived, only to be met with greater obstacles. Now he couldnt write properly, he cant even dress himself well. I think we all know how embarrassing and gruelling it was for him back then. How will we feel if we're so helpless that we even need assisstances in dressing ourselves? So David Lim managed to recover, but not fully i think. But the recovery wasnt easy of course, he went through rehabs. If I remember correctly, he once wrote about how difficult it was for him to how an ordinary cup. But he never lost sight of what he wanted, which was to return to mountain climbing. So from a once paralysed man, he worked himself up through intensive training to get himself back onto the team. He eventually attempted to scale Everest again, but I think he had to give it up when he was like 90% there for some reason which I dont know lol.

So you see, I feel the completing of our A levels is similar to David Lim's conquerring of Everest and maybe the results that we got back was as pain as the GBS he contracted. So we're now 'paralysed' but we can still pick ourselves up right? It aint there end yet. If a disease can take away a man's mobility and he still manage to overcome it and scale Everest again, then what is set back in A levels compared to that GBS?

Cry the night away, moan till the sun rises for all want. But eventually you still need to move on cuz no one's gonna wait for you. So best that we just stand up, plan things out and continue with life while it last! No point crying for 10 years cuz it wont bring home a single bowl of rice.

The three most important things in life: Family and friends, Heath and your Work life. We can screw anything up, including the A levels, just not these three.


PS: pardon me for any bad eng, too lazy to check.